And the band played...

This is my new anthem. I love you Kirk Franklin! Take that, Bjork!

Declaration (This is It)

Check it out, ya'll
(There've been times in my life)
I'm tired and I wanna give up
(I've been wondering why)
Why is the world gettin' so crazy?
(Still, somehow I believe)
I've come too far to die now
(I always survive)
If you're a survivor, get up!
Let's get it!

Gonna cry now, go ahead and
get it out of my system
Know I'm hurt now, but soon I
gotta get back to livin'
Can't be here next year, givin'
you these same tears
Hope you enjoyed it, 'cause
it's the last time you'll take
a piece of me

It start right now, I don't know
how I'm gonna get thru it
I'm broke right now, I pray
somehow 'cause I can't do it
Can't keep livin' like this, there's
gotta be more than this
Jesus, I'm ready, I'm ready for
what you have for me

(Are you gonna wait for a sign?)
Are you ready for your miracle
God's people it's time to (stand up and fight)
Let's get it, let's get it
This is it!!
You can't mess with my mind anymore
This is it!
I'm smarter, see I've been here before
This is it!
It's a new day, I'm not afraid anymore
This is it!
Yes, I believe, if you believe, help me say
This is it!

I'm a child of the King baby, look
at somebody and tell 'em
This is it!

I look back now, I look at how
you tried to break me
To take my life, my peace of
mind and drive me crazy
My self esteem, my dreams, my destiny
So, God allowed it, because He
knew He had big plans for me
(Hallelujah!)

It's your grace, I know today
it's how I made it (Thank
You, Jesus)
When I thought that it was
over (Lord, have mercy)

Everybody that's been holdin' you
down, look at 'em and tell 'em
This is it!
I feel my help coming on right now, ya'll

You think that maybe it's over
(You're life ain't over)
Not unless you want it to be

(Are you gonna wait for a sign?) your miracle
(stand up and fight)

This is it ya'll, this is it ya'll
You've been waitin' and
debating, here it is, ya'll
All your stuff from your past, shake it off ya'll
Though they said you wouldn't
last, who you is ya'll?
Want your dreams back? Let's get it!
Your peace of mind back? Let's get it!
Want your family back? Let's get it!
Are you ready? Let's get it! (This is it!)
I speak against everything that
comes to destroy the purpose in your life
This is it!
Worrying about your finances,
your future, when you can't even
sleep at night
This is it!
I speak against depression and fear,
every attack from the enemy
This is it!
This is your day, the Lord made it
baby! God has set you free!
This is it!

You can't mess with my mind anymore
This is it!
I'm smarter, see I've been here before
This is it!
It's a new day, I'm not afraid anymore
This is it!
I wanna hear ya'll sing this with your boy!
Every body say
This is it!

You can't mess with my mind anymore
This is it!
I'm smarter, see I've been here before
This is it!
It's a new day, I'm not afraid anymore
This is it!
Yes, I believe, if you believe, help me say
This is it!

From Victim to Victory

The first potential paid job that I was offered after graduating from college was to make an opening title for this woman's documentary on disabled people. Unfortunately, I didn't take it because I didn't have access to a computer with editing software. This was way back in 1996 and the software was still pretty new. Anyway, the woman liked the wavy effect I had created with the title. The film itself was ambitious, but I really don't like to look at it anymore. I'm just putting it up for posterity. (Of course there's a whole separate life to this film, but I won't get into that just now.)

From Victim to Victory. That's what keeps me warm at night.

Silence is golden

For the last couple of days I've been feeling so horrible, particularly from the things that have been going through my head. I feel like I know what it's like to be Mark Romanek and I abhor that feeling. Instead of cultivating hatred, I am going to retreat within myself for the next couple of days. I will do everything in my power so I don't end up like him. I do feel really sorry for you Mark and will be praying for you.